It’s just so sad.
And I really hate to say it, but it’s true.
What else do you call someone who doctor shops, gets prescriptions filled in other people’s names, has a body riddled with needle marks, and dies way too young?
If it wasn’t Michael Jackson but some normal Joe Blow instead, you know you’d agree with me, so don’t get all pissy and tell me I’m mean and heartless because I called Michael Jackson a junkie.
I don’t know why any of us were surprised to find out Michael Jackson had a gigantic prescription drug problem that ultimately caused his premature death. I mean, we’ve seen it before – Marilyn Monroe, Elvis, Anna Nicole Smith, Heath Ledger – their doctors were their drug pushers.
Now that Michael Jackson has died, and his secret drug habit has come to light, maybe we’ll finally wake up as a society and take notice. It’s pretty pathetic that our society hasn’t learned its lesson yet and we still think drugs from our doctors are safe.
TMZ has really been following the aftermath of Michael Jackson’s death and the news that’s coming out is really sad and pretty darn horrifying:
Jackson Doc — I Gave Michael Demerol
Dr. Arnie Klein, Michael Jackson’s longtime friend and dermatologist, admits to giving MJ Demerol — one of the strong painkillers we’re told Jackson sought out.
Klein says it was only “on occasion” to sedate him, and when asked about the drug Diprivan — the brand name for the drug Propofol, which was found in Jackson’s house when he died — Klein said he was aware Michael was using it but warned him of its dangers.
Jackson Seemed High After Leaving Docs
Michael Jackson used to leave the offices of various doctors looking “out of it,” according to a former bodyguard who was interviewed by detectives during the 2004 child molestation investigation.
Jackson Used Employees’ Names to Score Drugs
Michael Jackson went to a variety of doctors to get strong narcotics and used multiple aliases (including the names of several employees), this according to notes compiled during the Santa Barbara County Sheriff’s investigation back in 2004.
Jackson Addicted to Xanax, Bodyguard Says
Chris Carter told Santa Barbara County Sheriff’s Deputies he would pick up prescriptions for Xanax for Jackson at various pharmacies, and that Jackson was taking 10 plus Xanax pills a night.
Raid at Jackson’s Netted Heavy Drugs
Santa Barbara County Sheriff’s deputies who raided Michael Jackson’s Neverland Ranch back in 2003 found a syringe, powerful narcotics, vials and IV bags containing what could be anesthesia.
- A vial of Versed – a powerful sedative
- Several IV bags containing “a milky white fluid, located in a small cardboard box on top of the bathtub.” Propofol and other anesthesias are milky white. As we first reported, Propofol was in Jackson’s home the day he died.
- A vial of Promethazine – an antihistamine with strong sedative effects
- A bottle of Alprazolam (generic for Xanax, a powerful anti-anxiety drug)
- A bottle of Percocet – a painkiller
- A syringe
- A bottle of Prednisone – a steroid
- Ery-tab – an antibiotic
- Prescriptions for Xanax that had been filled
- A prescription for Alprazolam
- Oxygen tanks
- IV stands
Injection Marks on Jackson’s Neck
As we first reported, Jackson had “dozens” of injection sites and punctures all over his body the day he died. Law enforcement sources tell us some of these injection sites and punctures were old and some were fresh. They were found, we’re told, on his upper arms, upper legs, ankles, inside around his knees and the neck.
Jackson Self-Injecting Demerol, Doctor Says
A doctor who treated Michael Jackson claimed the singer self-injected Demerol into his system.
Jackson Docs Not Cooperating, Coroner Claims
Sources say Dr. Arnold Klein and Dr. Conrad Murray have not turned over the medical records the L.A. County Coroner’s office has requested. We’re told both doctors have turned over some records, but the coroner’s office has not gotten the complete file from either doctor.
Jackson Doc Offers ‘Potent Narcotic’ Solution
One of Michael Jackson’s doctors wanted Michael Jackson to trade his dependence on Demerol for another “potent narcotic.”
Dr. Alex Farshchian wrote Michael Jackson a letter — dated July 21, 2002 — in which he writes, “Buprinex (sic) is the potent narcotic I told you about last week. It is just like the D but better.” Buprenex is an injectable narcotic painkiller.
Jackson’s Knack for Picking Friendly Docs
Some medical experts suggest it’s a bad idea for doctors to become close to their patients because the doctors must retain the power to say “no” when the patient wants something that is not medically appropriate. Whatever his motives, Michael Jackson had a talent for picking doctors who were more than happy to pick him as a friend.
Authorities Closing in On Jackson Doc
Sources say the doctor is not cooperating with authorities, but they have still found evidence linking him to the drug that may have killed Jackson. As we first reported, as a result of Dr. Murray’s second interview with police two weeks ago today, the LAPD obtained a warrant to conduct a second search of Jackson’s home — and that’s when they found Propofol, a powerful anesthesia that should never be used outside a hospital. There is evidence Propofol was administered to Jackson shortly before his heart stopped beating.
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i don’t think he was a junkie, he had vitiligo and lupus and insomnia so he was taking meds for all those things and their symptoms. i think he was taking stuff he didn’t need to and shouldn’t have, i mean why the HELL did doctors actually give him some of that stuff it’s sickening that professionals would do this and neglect a patient so much. this is all so sad and tragic, it shouldn’t have happened, i hope some people are prosecuted
Scoop –
I agree that MJ began taking medication for his various ailments, but when he started asking for crazy drugs – drugs that had nothing to do with his medical issues – and the doctors gave him those crazy drugs, they fed his habit and it quickly turned into an addiction. By continuing to supply MJ with drugs he didn’t medically need, they had a helping hand in turning MJ into a junkie.
I hope some people are prosecuted too.
I AM IN A WORLD FAR AWAY, DOWN UNDER PEOPLE WOULD SAY.
IT WAS YOU WHO TAUGHT ME TO DANCE, AND DANCE I DID, LIKE MAD.
I HAD MORE IN COMMON WITH YOU THAN ANYONE WOULD EVER KNOW.
BE IT THE LOVE OF CHILDREN, EARTH, ANIMALS,MOTHER NATURE HERSELF
THERE WERE MANY THINGS YOU DID THAT WE SHARED,BUT PEOPLE JUDGE AND DONT CARE.TOO MANY WERE SLY AND SLEEK AND ONLY WANTED $.
YOUR HEART AND MINE WERE ALWAYS BEATING TOGETHER IN TIME AND ONLY EVER WANTED TO BE KIND. WE FELT THE SAME AS EACH OTHER, BUT NO ONE WOULD EVER UNDERSTAND THAT LOVE WHICH WE SHARED WAS PLAIN OLD FASHIONED CARING.WHAT NO ONE WAS EVER TOLD,HAS NOW BEEN LAID TO REST. BUT MORE THAN THAT, THAT THE WORLD DID NOT KNOW WAS OF YOUR ILLNESS YOU BATTLED, THAT WAS LIVING HELL! I KNOW OF ITS PAIN, TO THE POINT WHERE YOU CANT EVEN WALK,M.J MY MAN I HAVE THE SAME ILLNES AS YOU HAD, BUT NOW YOU ARE FREE OF ITS GRIPPING AGONY, I AM NOT THAT FAR AWAY,UNTIL I JOIN YOU. IT HAS TO GO.. MY FINAL WORDS TO YOU, I LOVE YOU, I FEEL YOU, I SENSE YOUR BEING AROUND AND EVERYTIME I HAVE TO REACH THE MEDS, WELL YOU ALREADY KNOW, WE BOTH HAD IT, YOU ARE FREE. R.I.P
I don’t believe that he behaved any differently than the so-called gliterati where he virtual grew up hollywood! Where I believe he went wrong was in the hangers on. Take a microscope and look at who stands to gain. Remember he’s worth more now than if he did 100 dates in 3 years. He was washed out he was 50 and all his chickens came home to roost. I believe that he was eliminated and this will come to light over the coming months.
TO HILARY,AND ALL YOU PEOPLE SAYING HE WAS A JUNKIE, SORRY TO DEFLATE YOU, BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT HIS ILLNESS’ WERE LIKE. WE TRIED TO BATTLE THE SAME ILLNESS’. AND I CAN TELL YOU NOW THAT NOTHING SHORT OF AN ANETHSTETIC STOPPED THE PAIN.
YOUR SO CALLED SCOOP, HAS LEFT OUT THE MAJOR ILLNESS’ THAT IS SO PAINFULL, MY GOD, MY MED DOES IS HIGHER THAN HIS AS I HAD A FEW THINGS THAT MY MAN DID NOT HAVE.THAT WE SPEND MOST DAYS IN BED, WE DONT HAVE A CHOICE. YOU ARE VULTURES! ALWAYS SLAMMING ANYONE YOU CAN. YOU SHOULD BE HANGING YOUR HEAD IN SHAME!ONLY IN AMERICA WILL YOU FIND YOUR KIND! YOU LOT ONLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHO HAS THE BEST HEAD LINE! I HAVE ALSO SHARE THE SAME ILLNESS’ AS HIM.. WE BOTH HAVE IT .. SO PLEASE, DONT EVEN THINK OF PUTTING THE LABEL OF JUNKIE ON HIM, OR I WILL TAKE LEGAL ACTION! THERE WERE MEDICAL REASONS FOR THE MASK, THE GLOVE, THE UMBRELLA AND THE INTENCE MEDS. THAT HE RARELY WENT OUTSIDE. AS FAR AS HIS TALENT, HE WAS MORE THAN A KING, HE WAS AN ICON, BUT HE WAS ALSO A VERY LOVING MAN, THAT WANTED TO BE LOVED, HELD,INTIMATE AND HE WANTED IT AS ANY MAN, A TWO WAY THING, TO TOUCH,KISS,HOLD ETC. PURE LOVE WAS MORE IMPORTANT AS HE KNEW TRUE LOVE WAS LOVE OF A MAN, NOT OF A PERFORMER. HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART. AND IN A WAY, THE FACT THAT HE IS NOW PAIN FREE, I HAVE A LITTLE ENVEY.. BUT I WILL REJOIN HIM SOON, BUT NOT YET! SO IF YOU CANT SAY ANYTHING NICE , DONT SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. R.I.P HONEY
Sarah,
I am sorry if you feel I am being insensitive to you and MJ and your pain, but I think you are missing my point. I am all for pain management – and not to get into things, but I have been dealing with chronic pain literally from the day I was born, so this is not a foreign subject to me – however, there comes a time in pain management when a line is crossed and the medication becomes an addiction. Eventually the drugs are no longer helping with the pain, they are just masking it. Eventually the drugs are not taken to ease the pain, they are taken just to be “normal,” and the drugs become an addiction.
Yes, there were medical reasons for the mask and the gloves, etc. but there was NO medical reason for MJ’s doctors to feed him incredibly heavy drugs at his home – drugs that should have never ever left the controlled environment of a hospital.
As for being a vulture – the only vultures in MJ’s life were the so-called Doctors who kept feeding him the drugs that ultimately killed him.
Perhaps the word ‘junkie’ is a little harsh, but MJ’s drug problem went way beyond simple pain management. That is my opinion, and I am entitled to it.
YOU DONT GET IT DO YOU!!?? CRONIC PAIN SYNDROME IS ONLY A SMALL PART OF WHAT WE HAVE. BUT IT WAS WAY MORE THAN THAT FOR US.. EVEN LAYING ON A BED HURT.. THE PAIN WOULD GET TO THE POINT OF HAVING SEIZURES. STOP YOU BREATHING DUE TO ITS INTENSE NATURE, SCREAMING….. THERE WAS EVERY REASON FOR HIM TAKING THE MEDS WE TOOK…..I SUGGEST THAT I ARRANGE A FEW PEOPLE TO BEAT THE HELL OUT OF YOU WITH BASEBALL BATS, THEN, AND ONLY THEN, WILL YOU HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT OUR PAIN IS LIKE.
YOU DONT LIKE BEING CALLED A VULTURE, WELL IF YOUR JOB IS TO REPORT, THEN YOU ARE A VULTURE, YOU BLOW THINGS WAY OUT OF WHAT THEY ARE….
ALL OF YOU SIT BACK SLAM MICHAEL, CALL HIM A JUNKIE…..
NONE OF YOU KNOW A DAMN THING ABOUT HIM… I CAN TELL YOU NOW, I KNOW A LOT MORE ABOUT MICHAEL THAN ANY OF YOU…. I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND EVEN WHY…………………..LIKE I SAID, I KNEW HIM AND UNDERSTOOD HIM MORE THAN ANY OF YOU… SO FOR GOD SAKE, LET HIM BE….
YOU YANK JOURNO’S @@@@ ME. YOU SLAM PEOPLE WHEN THEY ARE ALIVE AND CONTINUE TO DO SO WHEN THEY PASS AWAY. SO JUST BEAT IT. LET UP AND LEAVE US ALONE, AS FOR OTHERS SAYING WHAT ABOUT FARRAH…. “FARRAH WHO” 1 SHOW WONDER….
Geeze! Hey Sarah~ You’re blowing a lot of stale and hot air. Unless you have something to substantiate your claim to knowing more about MJ and his illness by providing PROOF or EVIDENCE that you do know more, then shut up.
Michael was a junkie! Whether he had legitimate reasons for taking all those drugs or not is beside the point. He took MORE than what is safe or within acceptable guidelines. 40 Xanax tablets a night? I know of no respectable professional doctor that would prescribe such a dosage.
I think that’s part of the problem. There were no PROFESSIONAL doctors in Michael’s life. I think the so called doctors were struck by the notoriety and limelight of having Michael as a patient so they couldn’t say “No.” If they did, Michael went to seek another doctor who would fill his prescriptions.
Sarah, if it was all legitimate and Michael had a medical “need” to take all those drugs, why then did he use his bodyguard’s name on the scripts? Doesn’t it seem a bit sinister to fraudulently obtain drugs in another person’s name for your own use? Oh, and in THIS country, it’s illegal to do so.
I’m sorry you’re in so much pain but it’s no reason to threaten Hilary by saying you’ll take legal action. You can’t do @@@@. This is a public blog and she stated her opinion. They don’t throw you in jail for stating your opinion. You, on the other hand, can have charges filed against you for beating her up with bats so she could understand your pain.
You seem to have intimate knowledge of MJ’s medical history, though his autopsy report hasn’t been released. So, unless you can provide evidence or proof to show how you know more and know so well about what Michael was feeling, then I’d suggest you step back and rethink all of the unsubstantiated claims you’re putting out here.
Have you ever considered seeing a professional psychiatrist? Maybe they can help you without the use of taking MORE meds. The truth isn’t always easy or pretty but it sure can’t be refuted.
as a diagnosed junkie i am offended by all of you. are you all better than me? i went to your churches, i went to your institutional learning facilities and you’re trying to say that i’m crazy. i pay my taxes, i deserve to vote, i deserve to live in my neighborhood without informing everyone within a 3 mile radius of my past and present activities and i deserve to marry my significant junkie by the power vested in me by the state of california. and i’ll be a junkie till the day i r.i.p. HONEY
MO, YOU POOR THING..I DO NOT HAVE TO PROVE ANYTHING TO YOU… AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL AS TO MICHAEL’S MEDICAL PROBLEMS. I KNOW WHAT HE TOOK, AND WHY HE TOOK IT.I KNOW PEOPLE ARE CALLING HIM A JUNKIE. BUT IT WAS NOT WHAT YOU THINK. FOR STARTERS, ANYONE TAKING ANYTHING ON A REGULAR BASIS FITS THE JUNKIE LABEL.HE NEVER TOOK ANYTHING TO GET STONED,HE JUST WANTED TO BE FREE FROM HIS PAIN. YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA AS TO HOW SICK HE WAS, AND THE ILLNESSES HE HAD. THE PAIN HE WAS IN 24/7 WAS A NIGHTMARE, AND UNLESS YOU HAVE THESE ILLNESS, YOU WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND. THE ONLY RELIEF WITH THESE ILLNESS, WAS EITHER AN ANESTHETIC, OR AN INDUCED COMA.OR A BOTTLE OF SEDATIVES.. HE WAS LIVING IN HELL, JUST A FEW OF HIS ILLNESSES, FIBROMYALGIA,LUPUS,AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE,INSOMNIA, INTERNAL BLEEDING.. THE PAIN MEDS HE WAS ON, BARELY TOOK THE EDGE OFF THE PAIN, BUT IF HE DID NOT TAKE IT,HE WOULD HAVE FELT EVEN WORSE.. BUT TAKING THE EDGE OFF BEATS YOU DOWN AFTER A WHILE, AND THAT IS WHEN YOU TAKE HIGHER DOSES OF PILLS OR START NEEDING A DRIP WITH EITHER STRONGER PAIN MEDS, OR ANESTHETIC FLUID. HAVE YOU EVER ASKED YOURSELF WHY THE MASK??? HE COULD NOT AFFORD TO GET SICK, HIS BODY WOULD HAVE HAD A HARD TIME FIGHTING IT… WHEN HE DID GO OUT, HALF THE TIME HE WAS IN A WHEELCHAIR… HE SPENT MOST OF HIS TIME ON OR IN A BED.. HIS HAIR WAS STARTING TO FALL OUT AND THE LIST OF WHAT I KNOW IS ENDLESS. AS FOR HILARY, PUBLIC PLACE OR NOT,DEFAMATION CAN BE TAKEN ANYWHERE…AS FOR THE BASEBALL BAT, OBVIOUSLY YOUR BRAIN CANNOT UNDERSTAND THE WORDS OF THAT’S HOW MUCH PAIN ONE WOULD BE IN…HAVE YOU NOT HEARD THE WORD COMPARE… NONE OF YOU KNOW WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH, NOR UNDERSTOOD HIM… HE WAS A LOVING PERSON THAT HAD A BIG HEART,HE ONLY WANTED TO HELP WITH HIS CHARITIES, AND HAVE SOMEONE TO JUST LOVE HIM AND HOLD HIM, NOT AS A CELEBRITY, BUT AS A MAN…THERE WILL NEVER BE SUCH A GENTLE AND KIND GUY LIKE HIM. YOU PEOPLE HAVE NO IDEA, OF WHAT HE WENT THROUGH. AND AS FOR YOU SUGGESTING THAT I NEED A PSYCHIATRIST, SORRY MO, DON’T NEED ONE….. BUT I THINK YOU DO…..SO WHEN WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO BOOK YOU IN? HOW ABOUT 3 WEEKS FROM NOW, AM BOOKED OUT UNTIL THEN..
Excellent article Hilary, and I wholly concur with your sentimnents (and Mo’s post). Regarding Sarah’s comments, I would take these with a pinch of salt.
There is a keycap next to your “A” letter on the keyboard Sarah, should be to the left called “CAPS LOCK”. Try using it. Google “Netiquette” for more information. Sorry, I cannot take Sarah’s rhetoric seriously…it sounds like it’s coming from a 10 year old child. Talking of which, not only was MJ a junkie, he also had an affinity with young boys. It’s just a pity that these FACTS override the extraordinary entertainer that he was, and the joy that he gave his fans through his music. RIP
Hey Sarah,
If you’re going to take legal action against Hilary for defamation, you better do the same with CNN, Fox News, Headline News and many other media outlets who say the same thing; Michael Jackson was a junkie.
No, I will never know the pain MJ was in any more than you can. It’s hard to be in someone else’s skin, and with Michael, it can be confusing. 😉 Look, you MAY have some similar symptoms and I feel you’re projecting a lot of your own torments onto him (and others on this blog.)
Michael took so many medications to “take the edge off” that he died. Well, I guess he’s feeling no pain now, is he? Sarah, you’re fighting to say it’s okay for Michael “needed” to take an over abundance and abuse of drugs. He’s dead due to the negligence of so called doctors and you seem to think that’s okay too. I don’t know what mind warp you’re in but I know of no place where that’s acceptable. I don’t believe Michael was a patient of Dr. Kavorkian, do you?
As for seeing a shrink, I’m not the one ranting and raving in all CAPS about excusing an unnecessary death. Michael had illnesses we may not even know about but that doesn’t change the fact he was a junkie. You may not like it but the photos and records released from 2003 clearly shows how Michael had a serious drug problem.
Again, if he was so legit, how come the need and use for using other’s names to get meds for Michael? That’s illegal on so many levels that no matter what you say, that Michael “needed” the drugs to take the edge off, doesn’t make it any less illegal.
You feel you don’t need a shrink, but your WORDS show otherwise. I hope you find peace, Sarah. Seems like a living hell you’ve going through with what you’ve posted.
Oh, and thank you David. I couldn’t agree with your post more. 🙂
NONE OF YOU UNDERSTAND DO YOU? I AM NOT PROJECTING MY ILLNESS. MY STATEMENT OF KNOWING MICHAEL, KNOWING WHAT HE TOOK, WHY HE TOOK IT,WHAT HE HAD, HOW IT AFFECTED HIM IS FIRST HAND KNOWLEDGE, NOT A BUNCH OF PROJECTED FEELINGS ON MY PART. HE WAS SICK, BUT DID NOT WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT IT. AS FAR AS THE DRUGS BEING IN OTHER PEOPLES NAMES, WELL THAT QUESTION COULD BE ANSWERED BY A 2 YR OLD… IF THEY WERE IN HIS NAME, WHAT DO YOU THINK THE MEDIA WOULD DO WHEN THEY HEARD ABOUT IT?AND THE FACT THAT HIS BODY NEEDED HIGHER DOSES TO HAVE ANY EFFECT WAS THE REASON FOR THE MULTIPLE DOCTORS. LEGAL OR NOT, IT WAS DONE TO PROTECT HIS PRIVACY AND TO STOP A MEDIA CIRCUS SHOW.ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING HE DID WAS ALWAYS BLOWN UP BY THE MEDIA; HE WAS ALSO WANTING TO PERFORM SO BAD,HE LOVED IT,HENCE THE CONCERT TOUR,BUT WE BOTH KNEW THAT HE WOULD MOST LIKELY NOT GET THROUGH IT.AND THAT HURT HIM LIKE MAD. AS FOR YOU DAVID, MY P.C IS OLD AND THE CAP LOCK KEY STICKS,SO THAT IS TOO BAD IF YOU DONT LIKE IT. EMOTIONALLY MICHAEL WAS GOING THROUGH HELL OVER HIS ILLNESS AS IT RULED HIS LIFE. IT HAD PASSED THE POINT OF HIM BEING ABLE TO CONTROL IT, AS IT WAS AT THE STAGE OF CONTROLLING HIM.HE THOUGHT THAT THE MEDS WOULD GET HIM THROUGH HIS TOUR THAT HE SO BADLY WANTED TO DO. BUT WHEN IT HIT HOME THAT IT WOULD NOT GET HIM THROUGH IT…..WELL…CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT, O.D, ASSISTED SUICIDE.. HE HAD REACHED THE POINT THAT BEING AWAKE IN PAIN WAS NOT LIVING. ON A PERSONAL NOTE, I DO NOT CARE IF YOU CLAIM THAT I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING, OR MICHAEL.I DID KNOW AND STILL DO KNOW. SO HE WILL LIVE IN MY HEART.. AS FOR YOUR SHRINK STATEMENT AGAIN…. I HAVE ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT I CANT FIT YOU IN FOR ANOTHER 3 WEEKS…
Hey Sarah, how exactly do you know Michael Jackson? I mean, you’re making it sound like the two of you talked every day. Did you actually physically know him or is your relationship with him all in your head?
Not trying to be rude, just trying to understand.
Sarah,
Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
I understand Michael was sick and perhaps sicker than I ever thought. I believe it was more than physical illness(es.)
Michael having to take extra medication or obtaining it under false pretenses doesn’t make what he did any more right or legal. Yes, it sheds some light on his “story” but it doesn’t make it okay. Are you saying Michael died because he needed all those drugs to ease his pain? If that’s the case, then his death is the cause of his (or his doctors’) actions. Cause and effect.
Funny, but Anna Nicole Smith also obtained drugs under false circumstances to avoid the media circus. Her doctor and lawyer (cough, puke) didn’t even bring her to a hospital when she had been feeling sickly for a few days and running a 105 degree fever. They’re both dead so I hope people can see from their examples that maybe doing so (obtaining drugs or extra drugs in another’s name) isn’t such a bright idea. It can be deadly (i.e. Anna Nicole, Michael Jackson.)
Michael has been a “celebrity” for a long time. Being that he was such good friends with Diana Ross, Liz Taylor, Liza Minnelli, etc… I would think he’d have seen what price comes with the fame and celebrity status. It’s gone on for decades how stars use fictitious names in order to obtain drugs for their own use. Fictitious names are used to score MORE drugs, not so much because they need it for physical pain as much as it’s become a psychological dependence on the drug(s.) The need for more and more of a drug in order to ease the pain, in Michael’s case, ended in his death. I guess that’s when the need for more drugs ends. I see and hear how loudly you champion the cause. Kudos to you for being so loud about it, even if I strongly disagree.
You want to excuse Michael’s unhealthy need for drugs because he was in so much pain. Does that excuse his behavior? He’s dead but I guess there’s nothing to be learned from his death to you. He NEEDED the drugs because he was in so much pain. He’s dead because he took too many drugs for his pain. How is that okay?
I hold the “doctors” AND Michael responsible for his death. Doctors could/would not tell Michael “no” and the ones who did were cut out of his life, so he could find yet another doctor who would continue to support and enable his unhealthy drug habit. Michael didn’t die all by his own actions. There were so called doctors who helped Michael to his untimely demise.
We lost a great talent and performer in Michael Jackson. I also believe we lost a great oddity, with Michael’s drastic transformation over the years. The issue with his nose is most evident (other than his skin color.) Whether it be due to sinus or congestion issues, his father Joe Jackson, also told Michael his nose was big. Can you tell me that didn’t play a part in Michael’s never ending nose chiseling?
It’s my observation that Michael’s pain weren’t just physical ones but psychological ones as well. I hope he is at peace.
Sarah, are you seeing a shrink in 3 weeks?
HILLARY.. FIRST, PLEASE DON’T THINK THAT THE CAPS LOCKED IS ME YELLING AT
YOU…..ITS NOT…. MY P.C HAS LOCKED THE KEY..
MY RELATIONSHIP IS NOT IN MY HEAD…. HOW I KNEW HIM IS PRIVATE AND VERY,VERY PERSONAL AND GIVEN WHAT HAS HAPPENED WITH THE MEDIA, AND ALL, THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY TO YOU, IS THAT I KNEW HIM, HIS ILLNESSES, THE PAIN, THE REASON FOR THE FAKE FOOTAGE OF THE SO CALLED REHEARSAL, THE REASON’S WHY THE MEDS WERE IN OTHER NAMES, WHY THE DEMEROL INJECTIONS, WHY THE OXYCONTIN, WHY THE ANESTHETIC DRIP, INTERNAL BLEEDING, AND THAT I LOVED HIM…HE EVEN HAD A GYM BUT IT WAS RARELY TOUCHED. AND IT HURTS ME TO SEE AND HEAR ALL THE MEDIA MAKING OUT THAT HE WAS BAD… HE WAS THE KINDEST PERSON ANYONE COULD KNOW. HE WAS LOVING AND GENTLE,WAY BEYOND ANYTHING YOU CAN IMAGINE.WHAT PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW AND REMEMBER IS THAT, HE LOVED AND ADORED HIS CHILDREN SO MUCH AND WAS A GREAT FATHER. BUT I CAN SAY THAT HIS MOTHER MEANT THE WORLD TO HIM HENCE WHY HE WANTED HIS CHILDREN TO BE RAISED BY HER..A SON IS MEANT TO OUT LIVE THE PARENT, THE CHANCE OF THAT WAS SMALL, IT CUT HIM DEEPLY. HE DID NOT WANT ANYONE TO SEE HIM THE WAY HE WAS. HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT ANYONE FROM KNOWING THE TRUTH. THE REASON I GET UPSET WHEN PEOPLE START ON HIM IS BECAUSE NONE OF YOU HAVE ANY IDEA OF WHAT HE WAS REALLY LIKE OR WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH. PEOPLE STARTED ALL KINDS OF STORIES ABOUT HIM IN BED AND THE VISITING CHILDREN THERE AS WELL, NONE OF YOU KNEW THE REASON AS TO WHY HE WAS ON THE BED IN THE FIRST PLACE! HIS ILLNESSES KEPT HIM BED BOUND A LOT OF THE TIME, BUT THIS WAS NOT KNOWN BY ANYONE BUT HIS DOCTORS.IT WAS ALL INNOCENT….MICHAEL WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM….ALL I WANT FOR HIM NOW, IS FOR ALL THE MEDIA, HYPE AND NAME CALLING TO STOP….HE WILL ALWAYS BE PART OF ME….
Gee Hilary….this Sarah chick seems to know so much about Michael and his life. A poster who remains anonymous behind the computer monitor and can’t prove or substantiate anything she says other than to take her words for it. Yet we are to ignore what is being said by Michael’s previous nurses, lawyers, doctors, friends.
Seems to me someone has detachment issues.
MO IT SEEMS THAT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME KNOWING MICHAEL… TOO BAD..
IF YOU KNEW SOMEONE AND SOME STRANGE PERSON SAID PROVE IT?? WHAT WOULD YOU THINK?. YOU WOULD TELL THEM TO TAKE A HIKE, RIGHT????I HAVE NOT SAID HE WAS NOT ON ANY MEDS,IN FACT I STATED WHAT I KNEW HE WAS ON. AND IF YOU WANT TO DIG UP DIRT, HIS EX NURSE QUIT BECAUSE SHE COULD NOT HANDLE HIS PLEE FOR PAIN MEDS. I DONT KNOW WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE, BUT I SENSE A TESTOSTERONE THING GOING ON WITH YOU. YOU CANT HANDLE THAT I KNEW HIM?, YOU CANT HANDLE THAT I KNEW HE WAS SICK?, YOU CANT HANDLE THAT THERE ARE THINGS THAT I KNOW THAT YOU DONT?, AND YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU ARE JUST A LITTLE WORM THAT CANT STAND THE THOUGHT THAT SOMEONE ELSE MAY HAVE KNOWN HIM AND WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH…SORRY MO, BUT YOU ARE NOT WORTH TALKING TO AS YOU KNOW NOTHING AND GET YOUR BACK UP AND TURN NASTY WHEN YOU GET TOLD AN HONEST STATEMENT…..
Well Sarah, you ARE a stranger to me and yet you want me to believe you knew Michael intimately. I have problems with people who claim something but have nothing to support their claim other than their words.
You haven’t said Michael wasn’t on meds. You seem to excuse Michael’s excessive use and abuse of drugs. I don’t understand anyone who condones bad behavior. Michael is dead, right? You seem to miss the point that Michael’s need for excessive drugs led to his death. And that seems to be okay by you and THAT’S what I don’t understand and find it a problem.
I don’t care whether you knew Michael in reality or not. You certainly can’t prove anything and haven’t proved anything other than your incessant words saying you knew Michael and what pain he was in.
I wouldn’t give a rat’s ass whether you knew him or not. All the posts you’ve made are only from your point of view, with nothing to support it. Only your words that you knew him. My posts have been made from my observations, reading, hearing news (not just the celebrity news shows) and from my own life experience. Check out TMZ, CNN, Fox News, Headline News, People Magazine and any of the numerous wed sites and you’ll find that they support what I’ve posted. You have provided NOTHING BUT ALL CAPS SAYING YOU KNEW MICHAEL, HE WAS IN PAIN AND SUFFERING, NUMEROUS ILLNESSES. I don’t argue he was in pain and had illnesses. I have a problem with someone stating something factual and having nothing to support it. Even if it weren’t you, Sarah, I’d have a problem with it.
How can one discuss or debate without facts?
You haven’t answered any of the questions I’ve posted previously. Like if what Michael did was so legitimately, why use fictitious names? Oh yeah, to protect his privacy. Anna Nicole Smith did that and she’s dead too. That is not only and honest statement but TRUTHFUL. Michael had a lot of “yes” people in his life (much like Anna Nicole) and he died. Anna, too, cut people out of her life when they didn’t do as she wanted (mostly get more drugs) the very same way Michael cut people out of his life when they didn’t do as he wanted or wished. Too many similarities between the two, drugs and death being the end result.
Michael was a junkie only we didn’t really know about it until after his death. He was good at hiding it, unlike Anna Nicole where we saw her obliterated on awards shows as well as her own reality show. It upsets you when people call him a junkie. The fact he had needle marks throughout his body and the abundance of drugs found in his home not just this time around but as far back as 2003 shows he was a junkie. Now he’s a dead junkie. Janet even tried intervention to which Michael refused contact with his family members. Those are FACTS, Sarah. Your excuse for Michael is that he was sick, in pain, etc, etc… I’ve learned you can’t help someone who is not willing to help themselves.
Nasty? You were the one threatening to file legal action against Hilary for stating her opinion. Rant, rant, rant…you KNEW Michael. He was in pain (on which I agree and I also believe it was more than just physical pain he was suffering.) You excuse and condone his abuse of medications because he was in pain and suffering. You’re in pain and suffering, as is evident by all your posts. You’ll “join” Michael soon, you “aren’t far behind.” Geeze! I’d love for a professional psychiatrist to read and comment on your posts, as well as mine. I’d be willing to hear and even accept her or his impressions of them. Are you?
You come off the wall (hmmm…) when people call Michael a junkie, when there’s plenty of evidence he was one. You go ballistic claiming to know and understand Michael’s situation but you don’t offer anything to support your own statements. Show a link, share a private email/letter, go to tinypics and share with others that you knew Michael. You’ve done nothing but be redundant about knowing him with nothing to substantiate it. You are a stranger to me so I think you’re full of chit because you can’t back up anything you say about knowing him.
As for what I’ve stated here and in my previous posts, we have Michael’s history to support my statements. What’s there to support yours?
Maybe you don’t understand how blogs work. You state something, you should have something to support it other than your words. A link to where you got your information (other than your head) would be nice.) If you have nothing to support your claims, they’re only you opinions. And in this country there’s a saying that opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. Or is one.
I don’t have a problem you knowing Michael IF you knew him. I have a problem with you screaming about it without anything to show you knew Michael other than your stuck CAPS. You are a stranger to me so why would I believe you? I am a stranger to you but yet you keep hounding me about how I don’t get it and am running on testosterone (and you’re dead wrong about it.)
Michael WAS sick, in pain, had many illnesses and took an overabundance of drugs. I understand it. I don’t understand why you seem to think it’s okay that he took so many drugs that led to his death. That is NOT okay unless it was something he was intentionally trying to do. (I am almost anticipating you saying he did do it intentionally.) As time progresses, we will learn a few more things that may or may not support it.
But having read your posts, it wouldn’t matter what the report reveal because YOU KNEW MICHAEL AND HE WAS IN PAIN AND NEEDED MORE DRUGS. You seem to be a lost cause, Sarah. I’m sorry for your pain. Godspeed.
I TOO HAVE AN ISSUE WTH CAPS LOCK.
IT’S BEEN BOTHERING ME FOR SOME TIME.
I ACTUALLY HAVE CHANGED MY MIND ABOUT MJ.
I USED TO THINK THAT HE WAS A CHILD MOLESTER, MOLESTED AS A CHILD (LIKE PETE TOWNSEND FROM THE WHO)
NOW I THINK IT WAS ALL ABOUT LONG TERM DRUG DEPENDANCY.
IF YOU WANT ME TO CONTINUE, LET ME KNOW…
Why yes Mike, I would love for you to continue.
Do you think MJ was a junkie? Or are you on Sarah’s side and refusing to admit MJ had a serious drug problem because he “needed” the drugs – which, personally, I thought was a sign of someone having a serious drug problem, but Sarah says she knew MJ and she knows better than all of us, so I could be wrong.
Except that I’m not!
So what do you think Mike?
OH YOU POOR THING MO!!!!! I REALLY FEEL SORRY FOR YOU!!! SINCE WHEN DID OTHER PEOPLES PERSONAL BUSINESS COME DOWN TO THE LEVEL OF HAVING TO PROVE IT.. AND TO A STRANGER???? MY GOD…THAT’S LIKE ME ASKING YOU TO PROVE WHO YOU ARE AND TO PROVE AND BACKUP EVERYTHING YOU CLAIM?? YOUR STATEMENT IS LUDICROUS AND PLAIN STUPID. I NEVER STATED THAT I CONDONED THE LEVEL AND COMBINATION OF HIS MEDS, I THINK THAT IS WHY THEY STILL HAVE HIS BRAIN, TO CHECK FOR DAMAGE DUE TO DRUG USE. BUT WHAT I AM SAYING, THAT I KNEW THE PAIN HE WAS LIVING WITH,SEEING HIM LIKE THAT WAS HEART BREAKING, I KNEW EVERY REASON FOR DEMANDING THE HEAVY MEDS. HE WOULD NEVER BEEN ABLE TO TO 50 GIGS IN THAT AMOUNT OF PAIN…..I NEVER LIKED IT EITHER, UNFORTUNATELY, WITH HIM IN THE LIME-LIGHT, HE HAD TO COME ACROSS AS FINE AND IN FANTASTIC CONDITION… YOU MADE MENTION THAT YOU EXPECTED ME TO COME OUT WITH THE STATEMENT OF HE DID IT INTENTIONALLY.. IF YOU READ THROUGH THIS LONG DRAWN OUT DEBATE, YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN THAT I HAD MENTION THE POSSIBILITY OF ASSISTED SUICIDE…. JUST BECAUSE I KNEW HIM DOES NOT MAKE IT RIGHT, AS FAR AS ALL THE DRUGS GO, I WAS SIMPLY TRYING TO POINT OUT TO YOU THAT I UNDERSTOOD WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH AND WHAT MEDS HE WAS ON AND WHY HE TOOK THEM IT DOES NOT CONDONE THE EXCESS USE OF THEM.
AS FOR YOU AND YOUR STATEMENTS, THEY ARE GETTING A LITTLE STALE AND I HAVE REPLIED TO WHAT I WANTED TO REPLY TO AS THERE IS SUCH A THING AS PRIVACY, THE ONLY WORDS LEFT FOR ME TO SAY ARE TO CERTAIN FAMILY MEMBERS AND THAT LEAVES YOU @@@@ OUT OF LUCK…..OH, AND YOU MENTION VARIOUS TABLOIDS? SORRY MATE, I AM ON A RANCH WITH ACRES OF BUSH LAND IN VICTORIA, AUSTRALIA, SO I DON’T GET INTO THAT KIND OF LOWER LEVEL MEDIA..
I, too, am interested on your thoughts about Michael’s drug dependence, Mike.
I don’t know if Michael was molested, but it seems he had physical and emotional abuse at least from his father, Joe. I think that type of abuse can manifest itself in different ways, drug abuse or drug dependence can be a result. We aren’t talking about a “friend” you know, but a well known celebrity that has been in the public eye for decades. We saw his drastic transformation and eventual death.
I’m curious, Mike; what changed your mind thinking Michael was a child molester to being drug dependent?
Thanks!
HI MIKE, NICE TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE ELSE IN THE WORLD HAS A CAPS LOCKED P.C.. WITH TO MICHAEL AND HIS MEDS, WE WERE ALWAYS TAUGHT TO PUT THEM INTO 2 GROUPS.. 1 BEING DRUGS TO BE TAKEN FOR A REASON OR DRUGS TO GET HIGH….
THE PROBLEM IS THAT MICHAEL WAS ON DRUGS THAT CAN FIT INTO EITHER GROUP… AND THIS IS WHERE PEOPLE DONT GET IT…HE WAS VERY SICK AND IN A LOT OF PAIN, HENCE OVER TAKING MEDS TO KILL THE PAIN.. SO ON THIS SIDE IT IS NOT TO GET HIGH. BUT THEN AS STATED, THE VERY SAME DRUGS, IF OBTAINED, CAN AN WILL BE USED BY PEOPLE SEEKING TO GET HIGH…. IT IS THIS VERY LINE THAT NO-ONE CAN UNDERSTAND.. HE NEEDED THEM FOR HIS SEVERAL ILLNESSES, BUT OVER TIME WHEN THE ILLNESS GOT WORSE, THE MEDS HAD TO BE INCREASED… PEOPLE DONT WANT TO SEE THIS SIDE OF THE PICTURE. ALL THEY WANT TO DO IS MAKE OUT HE TOOK IT TO GET HIGH AND TO SELL THEIR PAPERS.. I HAVE BEEN SLAMMED AND CALLED NAMES BECAUSE I CAN SAY I KNOW HIM???? HAVE ANY OF YOU THOUGHT THAT I MAY HAVE KNOWN HIM THROUGH A CHARITY HE WAS INVOLVED WITH? THAT TURNED INTO A VERY CLOSE FRIENDSHIP?? NO I DID NOT THINK SO..APART FROM MIKE, SO FAR, ALL HAVE YOU HAVE SLAMMED ME FOR HAVING A PROBLEM WITH MY KEYS LOCKED, FOR BEING ABLE TO SAY THAT I KNEW HIM AND BECAUSE I KNEW WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH…ALL YOU GUYS SO FAR HAVE WANTED TO KNOCK HIM DOWN, AND HAVE A SHOT AT ME BECAUSE I KNEW HIM….OMG YOUR EGOS!!!!! EXCULDING MIKE AS HE HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST ME AT THIS STAGE…
It seems the email address Mike gave has reached its mailbox quota, so he is unaware of the responses he has received. Too bad for him – they’re quite interesting.
MJ will always be remembered not only for the remarkable musical contributions made in the “life changing” field of entertainment ,but also as the most beloved PEDO/JUNKIE in the history of mankind.As for Farrah being a one-show wonder although he made many “hit” 45’s as a child as an adult all the royalties he was presently living on came from the making of three full albums which i doubt were were even played as much before his untimely demise.People tend to overlook or convinently pretend that al the hits like “billiejean,thriller.etc” were all MJs however if it were not for the opening guitar riffs thought of and credited by Edward Van Halen and other credited contributions by other “real” rock musicians I doubt that “THRILLER” would become what it has accomplished to this very day,the worlds number one album of all time.And after that what he became notoriously known for had less to do with music and more for his obsession to “be like WHITE” to erase through plastic surgery that he was of AFRICN descent to his life long passion for pre-tween boys.His vein-breaking intraveneous pre-occupation whether for real or imagined illnesses does have a message that all should take to heart which is anything and more so if one chooses to indulge in any “medication”whether it be legit or illicit,the road to wisdom is one of excess;which in the end will first take your money,health and sadly in this case a superstar’s life.happy day to all 🙂
Oh in cae you missed what i was alluding to previously in regards to commenting on farrah being a one show wonder .With MJ being known world wide mostly for the music from primarily the thriller and dangerous albums,he just had one on farrah being a two hit album wonder..and besides farrah was more pleasurable to look at than the caricature MJ had chosen to look like with his vampire junkir pale skin to his famous paste-on nose,the result from believing in liz taylors manta of better living through paying a plastic surgeon 🙂 later 🙂
PRETTIPOISON DO YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HIM???? IF YOU HAVE DARK SKIN AND YOU GET HIT WITH LUPIS,IT WILL TURN YOU WHITE AND BLOCHY AND YOU CAN NOT AFFORD TO LET THE SUN HIT YOUR SKIN, HENCE HATS, UMBRELLA, GLOVES.AS FOR WHO WROTE THE SONGS, FIRSTLY, MOST PEOPLE DONT SING THEIR OWN MATERIAL. BUT HE DID WRITE A LOT OF HIS OWN MUSIC… HOW MANY OF YOU CAN SAY THAT YOU HAVE BEEN OF HIS STATUS FOR OVER 40YEARS… JUST LET IT BE…
>>> This is my response to Sarah and I’m breaking it up into two sections because it’s quite lengthy. <<<
PART I-
Stop projecting your pity on me, Sarah. I don’t need it.
You seem to forget how your posts first began on this thread, with your homage to Michael. It seemed pretty poetic until you got to this part: … YOUR HEART AND MINE WERE ALWAYS BEATING TOGETHER IN TIME AND ONLY EVER WANTED TO BE KIND. WE FELT THE SAME AS EACH OTHER, BUT NO ONE WOULD EVER UNDERSTAND THAT LOVE WHICH WE SHARED WAS PLAIN OLD FASHIONED CARING.WHAT NO ONE WAS EVER TOLD,HAS NOW BEEN LAID TO REST. BUT MORE THAN THAT, THAT THE WORLD DID NOT KNOW WAS OF YOUR ILLNESS YOU BATTLED, THAT WAS LIVING HELL! I KNOW OF ITS PAIN, TO THE POINT WHERE YOU CANT EVEN WALK,M.J MY MAN I HAVE THE SAME ILLNES AS YOU HAD, BUT NOW YOU ARE FREE OF ITS GRIPPING AGONY, I AM NOT THAT FAR AWAY,UNTIL I JOIN YOU. IT HAS TO GO.. MY FINAL WORDS TO YOU, I LOVE YOU, I FEEL YOU, I SENSE YOUR BEING AROUND AND EVERYTIME I HAVE TO REACH THE MEDS, WELL YOU ALREADY KNOW, WE BOTH HAD IT, YOU ARE FREE. R.I.P
You’re saying you have Michael’s illness and say you’re not that far away until you join him. Yet you feel sorry for me and say I’m the one making ludicrous statements? I dare you Sarah, to take our posts and show them to anyone else and let them decide who is ludicrous.
Your second post, you call Americans “vultures.” (This site you’re on is run by an American on American soil, so if you think we’re so bad, feel free to get off of it.) You threaten Hilary with legal action for calling MJ a junkie. Then you get goofy with this in your post: BUT HE WAS ALSO A VERY LOVING MAN, THAT WANTED TO BE LOVED, HELD,INTIMATE AND HE WANTED IT AS ANY MAN, A TWO WAY THING, TO TOUCH,KISS,HOLD ETC. PURE LOVE WAS MORE IMPORTANT AS HE KNEW TRUE LOVE WAS LOVE OF A MAN, NOT OF A PERFORMER. HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART. AND IN A WAY, THE FACT THAT HE IS NOW PAIN FREE, I HAVE A LITTLE ENVEY.. BUT I WILL REJOIN HIM SOON, BUT NOT YET! SO IF YOU CANT SAY ANYTHING NICE , DONT SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. R.I.P HONEY
How do you know Michael wanted to be held, intimate, touched and loved? Did Michael tell you? Don’t you think it’s hypocritical of you to say if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all when you are the one threatening legal action and calling a nation of people “vultures?”
Now you’re saying you “knew every reason” for Michael’s demand for excessive meds. Did your scalp burn too? Have you had numerous surgeries, facial ones in particular? You give nothing to make me believe you knew Michael as you claim.
On your third post, you say: I CAN TELL YOU NOW, I KNOW A LOT MORE ABOUT MICHAEL THAN ANY OF YOU…. I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND EVEN WHY…………………..LIKE I SAID, I KNEW HIM AND UNDERSTOOD HIM MORE THAN ANY OF YOU… SO FOR GOD SAKE, LET HIM BE….
You know Michael more than any of [us]? Does his family even know about you? His kids know you? Your arrogance and know-it-all attitude stinks and is very much unappreciated when you make statements like that and show nothing to support it. And THAT Sarah, is what you seem to be unable to grasp in this “debate” you and I have had on this thread.
Your fourth post is pretty crazy to me. And I’ve only provided excerpts on your posts but at least I’m showing you where you can find the info that supports my statements. Where’s yours? The few illnesses you say Michael had have been reported on television and on the internet, so get off your condescending plateau about not getting into that kind of “lower level media.” So being in the Bush or not is a moot point. I’d like to point out you are posting on a site from America with the word “gossip” in its name.
Your fifth post, you say you’re not projecting: NONE OF YOU UNDERSTAND DO YOU? I AM NOT PROJECTING MY ILLNESS. MY STATEMENT OF KNOWING MICHAEL, KNOWING WHAT HE TOOK, WHY HE TOOK IT,WHAT HE HAD, HOW IT AFFECTED HIM IS FIRST HAND KNOWLEDGE, NOT A BUNCH OF PROJECTED FEELINGS ON MY PART.
You know it first hand how? I also see this post is where you allude to the assisted suicide, however not very clearly. I’m sorry your keys are stuck but your blocks of incessant and unsupported words make it all easy to skip or forget your words.
… To be continues…
Response to Sarah PART II-
Your sixth post you state you knew Michael personally. … HOW I KNEW HIM IS PRIVATE AND VERY,VERY PERSONAL AND GIVEN WHAT HAS HAPPENED WITH THE MEDIA, AND ALL, THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY TO YOU, IS THAT I KNEW HIM, HIS ILLNESSES, THE PAIN, THE REASON FOR THE FAKE FOOTAGE OF THE SO CALLED REHEARSAL, THE REASON’S WHY THE MEDS WERE IN OTHER NAMES, WHY THE DEMEROL INJECTIONS, WHY THE OXYCONTIN, WHY THE ANESTHETIC DRIP, INTERNAL BLEEDING, AND THAT I LOVED HIM…
I’m still not convinced you knew Michael privately or personally, but hey…whatever floats your boat. I don’t have to believe you anymore than you have to believe me. But at least I can support my statements and you haven’t been able to support yours. Again Sarah, THAT is the very point you’re missing in our “debate.”
In that same post, you also say Michael was in bed with the children because of his illness. …ALL KINDS OF STORIES ABOUT HIM IN BED AND THE VISITING CHILDREN THERE AS WELL, NONE OF YOU KNEW THE REASON AS TO WHY HE WAS ON THE BED IN THE FIRST PLACE! HIS ILLNESSES
That’s plausible and until I learn and know more, it’s only your hard to believe words or opinion. (Will you please learn to break your posts into paragraphs? It’s hard enough you’re all in CAPS and to have no break in your words makes it harder, at least for me. Thanks.) As far as I’ve been able to learn YOU are the only one making that claim. To seek corroboration is not crazy or harsh but simply thorough. You make factual statements with no facts to support them, but you claim you’re being slammed and called names.
You also state: HE DID NOT WANT ANYONE TO SEE HIM THE WAY HE WAS. HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT ANYONE FROM KNOWING THE TRUTH
So you’re saying the Michael we saw was an illusion and he did what he did to hide the truth. That’s a very telling statement, Sarah. Whichever way you take it, Michael was hiding the truth whatever it was. I think it’s safe to say hiding or running from the truth cost Michael his life.
Your seventh post you say: … HIS EX NURSE QUIT BECAUSE SHE COULD NOT HANDLE HIS PLEE FOR PAIN MEDS.
That’s a clear sign to me that there’s a problem. His PLEA (correct spelling) for pain meds. Again, I believe Michael was in more than just physical pain. The scalp burn and numerous surgical procedures I think caused him pain even after the procedures. But did you notice Joe Jackson wasn’t mentioned in Michael’s will? It’s my thought that there’s Michael had unresolved issues with his father.
You’re eighth post is what this post of mine is responding to. I didn’t mention “tabloid.” This is part of my post: “I wouldn’t give a rat’s ass whether you knew him or not. All the posts you’ve made are only from your point of view, with nothing to support it. Only your words that you knew him. My posts have been made from my observations, reading, hearing news (not just the celebrity news shows) and from my own life experience. Check out TMZ, CNN, Fox News, Headline News, People Magazine and any of the numerous wed sites and you’ll find that they support what I’ve posted. You have provided NOTHING BUT ALL CAPS SAYING YOU KNEW MICHAEL, HE WAS IN PAIN AND SUFFERING, NUMEROUS ILLNESSES. I don’t argue he was in pain and had illnesses. I have a problem with someone/anyone stating something factual and having nothing to support it. Even if it weren’t you, Sarah, I’d have a problem with it. What don’t you understand about that statement?
Do you consider CNN, Fox News and Headline News to be tabloid? I can understand TMZ People Magazine being called tabloids, but that’s not to say there’s a grain of truth in their articles. I’ve also read MJ info on Reuters and the AP, and they have credible reputations. But if you consider them tabloids because you KNEW Michael, then so be it.
And, if my statements are “stale” then why do you keep responding to me?
Did you know others can send their condolences to “the family” via internet? I just wish you’d quit making yourself out to be some kind of wonderful because you state you KNEW MICHAEL, with nothing to back it up.
…to be continued…
Conclusion to my response to Sarah’s 8th post, PART III-
You didn’t say you condoned the excessive amounts of drugs Michael needed but you IMPLIED it by stating he needed them because he was sick and in pain. If you don’t do anything to stop it, then you’re either condoning or supporting it. You understand why Michael needed all those drugs and it’s okay by you because he didn’t take it to get high, he took it because he body grew tolerant to the drugs and he needed more. Michael’s need for more drugs only ended with his death. And that’s okay by you because you understand. Did I get that right?
Since I’ve been thorough and labored over this one post, I’ve since read your ninth post, which was to MIKE, also with stuck CAPS. Funny even after a few posts, how you didn’t say your CAPS were stuck until it was pointed out to you. All CAPS in “Netiquette” means angry. I find it intriguing though, that MIKE with the stuck CAPS’s moniker is all in CAPS but our dear Sarah with the stuck CAPS, didn’t mention they were stuck until several posts and it was brought to her attention. HMMM…
Your post to MIKE, you say you’ve been “slammed and called names.” I still stand by all the posts I’ve made to you. I slammed you because you state things as factual but haven’t been able to support your statements other than your words. The charity volunteer turned close friendship can be more believable than you storming in here saying “I KNEW MICHAEL.” It’s your approach, Sarah; arrogant and condescending. “I KNOW BETTER THAN ANY OF YOU.” Right. Like that’s gonna win anyone over. Chit like that deserve to be shot.
Now you’re whining about getting taken a shot at because you knew Michael. Well gee…having just chronicled your posts, I can see why some would want to take shots at you. Awww, poor baby out in the Bush… Stop presenting yourself as a condescending a**hole and maybe I won’t want to take a shot at you. But it seems like you’re working on MIKE saying something against you at a later time. OMG YOUR EGOS!! EXCULDING MIKE AS HE HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST ME AT THIS STAGE…
Does the Bush have enough space for your ego? Or are you just workin’ it so someone else can take a “shot” at ya?
Oooh, I see you’ve gone ballistic on prettypois0n with your 10th post on here. HOW MANY OF YOU CAN SAY THAT YOU HAVE BEEN OF HIS STATUS FOR OVER 40YEARS… JUST LET IT BE…
It seems to me YOU are the one that should let it be, Sarah. And what’s with the comparison bullchit? What kind of status have you been in for over 40 years?
Take heed to your own words, Sarah. JUST LET IT BE… or shut up about it.
I’m out of here until tonight. G’day all! 🙂
HERE WE GO AGAIN….. APART FROM THE LUPUS, YES I DO HAVE THE SAME ILLNESSES, I HAVE HAD PARTIAL HAIR BURNT GETTING OUT OF AN AREA OF BUSH THAT WAS BURNING.BUT YOU COULD NOT COMPARE IT TO THE FIRE THAT MICHAEL WAS BURNT IN. YOU MADE A COMMENT ALONG THE LINES OF POOR ME, STUCK WAY OUT IN THE BUSH…… I DON’T NEED PITY….. I LOVE IT AND WOULD NOT TRADE IT FOR ANYTHING!! WHEN I OPEN MY EYES EACH MORNING I SEE KANGAROO’S, WALLABIES,AND THE SONGS OF RARE BIRDS. WHAT DO YOU SEE? NOT HAVING A GO AT YOU, I AM JUST CURIOUS? IN THE FIRST PART OF YOUR STATEMENT WHERE YOU HAVE QUOTED OUR FEELINGS, I WAS TALKING ABOUT BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND MANY THINGS, FROM OUR ILLNESS, TO THE FACT THAT HE LOVED HIS FANS, BUT FAME HAS A PRICE, AND YOU PAY BIG TIME WITH EVERYTHING YOU DO, YOU CANT BE JUST A MAN THAT IS WANTED JUST OUT OF LOVE, BECAUSE HE WAS FOLLOWED BY THE MEDIA AND A PERSON IN THE PUBLIC EYE, HE WOULD NOT KNOW IF THEY LOVED HIM OR WHO HE WAS,OR IF IT WAS A SET UP FOR THE MEDIA SO THEY COULD HAVE THE STORIES..
AND YES AT THE RATE OF MY ILLNESS, I DON’T KNOW HOW LONG I CAN GO ON WITH THE PAIN LIKE THIS. I DON’T HAVE A PERSONAL DR GIVING ME MEDS, FIRST THAT TAKES MONEY AND SECOND IT WOULD NOT GET PAST OUR MEDICAL HISTORIES SCHEME. LIKE MICHAEL, I HAVE A LOVE OF CHILDREN, I ALSO RUN A CHARITY, MICHAEL DONATED MONEY TO THOUSANDS OF CHARITIES, LIKE I HAVE ALREADY STATED, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT THAT THIS IS HOW WE MET?
AS FOR MY COMMENT ABOUT MOST AMERICANS BEING VULTURES, I AM MOSTLY TALKING ABOUT THE MEDIA! I SHOULD KNOW, I LIVED THERE FOR 4-5 YEARS AND WAS ALSO MARRIED TO ONE.
YES I MENTIONED ASSISTED SUICIDE,I BELIEVE FAR MORE THAN THIS, BUT, I CANT SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY DUE TO YOUR LEGAL SYSTEM, BUT THAT IS AS CLOSE AS I CAN STATE…
YOU ALSO MENTIONED THE FACT THAT I WAS BEING ANGRY WITH NOT STATING MY REASON FOR MY CAPS LOCKED…. TO BE UP-FRONT, I DID NOT KNOW THAT! AS I RARELY USE A P.C. IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS YELLING, I APOLOGIES, AS I DID NOT KNOW AND WHEN ONE OF YOU MENTIONED IT, I STATED THE REASON.
I HAVE ANSWERED MOST OF YOUR QUESTIONS, DUE TO OUR PRIVACY, THERE IS A LINE.YOU HAVE MENTIONED NUMEROUS TIMES FOR ME TO PROVE THINGS. AND, AS PREVIOUSLY STATED, IF I TOLD YOU THAT YOU HAD TO PROVE SOMETHING TO ME, IT WOULD BE OUT OF LINE.
I DO NOT CARE IF YOU BELIEVE ME OR NOT, I JUST DON’T CARE. BUT I WILL ALWAYS KNOW THAT I DID KNOW HIM…AND THAT THERE IS MORE TO COME WITH HIS DEATH..
Okay Sarah, we are continuing our “debate.” Actually, I am starting to understand (for lack of a better term) what it is you are trying to say, though (no offense) you need to be more clear or articulate about what you mean.
I’m sorry that you’re ill. I too have had 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my legs but unless I showed you my hospital records or scars, there’s no way of proving it on an internet blog. So touche` on that one.
No, I didn’t not make a comment of poor you, being out in the Bush. You stated: OMG YOUR EGOS!! EXCULDING MIKE AS HE HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST ME AT THIS STAGE…
To which I responded: Does the Bush have enough space for your ego? Or are you just workin’ it so someone else can take a “shot” at ya?
(I am responding only in regards to the last post I made to you, not previous posts.) I certainly wasn’t pitying you. You don’t need my pity any more than I need yours.
I live in a city but I do see birds, raccoons, squirrels. When I go north, I can see elk, wild turkeys, snakes. I wasn’t faulting or slamming you for living in the Bush. In fact, there’s a part of me that finds it enviable (to a degree) but I’d probably croack with the heat, so kudos to you for surviving it with your illnesses.
As for you understanding Michael and his distrust for others (not knowing if they wanted/liked him for himself or because he was a celebrity) you really need to be more clear about your statements. The way you flew off with so many unsupported statements makes it very easy to legitimately question your statements. Was it so hard to say you knew him from charity work? Or were you protecting Michael from more media scrutiny?
I AM sorry you are in pain and have stated so in previous posts. I don’t understand what you mean about …AND SECOND IT WOULD NOT GET PAST OUR MEDICAL HISTORIES SCHEME. I don’t know what medical scheme you are trying to pull off. Or why.
Why couldn’t you be honest enough to say you ran a charity, instead of repeatedly saying you knew Michael without ever giving an explanation as to HOW you knew him? You avoided saying anything about it until very late in our “debate.” Like I said, it gives some credence to your statements that you knew Michael had you stated your charity work in the first place. And no, I never thought charity work is how you may have met. Michael did a lot of things, like seek numerous doctors or go shopping a lot so how in the world would anyone know how you and Michael may have met?
Your comment about Americans being vultures, you need to be more specific about who you are calling names. Only in America, “YOU LOT” is a very general statement and includes everyone, not just the media. Also, I have lived in America for decades and have felt free to speak my mind without fear of retaliation. We do have Freedom of Speech here.
As far as our legal system, well I don’t know what you can’t say due to it but I understand there are differences in legal systems with different countries or sovereignties. Too bad you aren’t free to speak your mind.
I can accept that you didn’t know all CAPS meant anger, so I apologize for slamming you on that one.
Good for you that you know you knew Michael. Isn’t that the most important part after all? As for me asking for proof of it, that’s what’s done on a blog. If you make a statement and someone asks for evidence to support your statement, it isn’t out of line as much as it’s being investigated or thorough. If I stated something I can’t support, then it’s fair for someone not to believe me. However, now that you’ve been more forthcoming with information, I can begin to understand where you might be coming from. Not that I believe everything you say, but I am willing to hear you out.
Out of sheer curiosity, are you above the age of 20 years?
Oh, and I do agree with you that there is more, much more to come of his death.
Again Sarah, it’s making statements without support that I question highly, no matter who states it. It helps to be articulate as well. I do thank you however, for using paragraphs in your last post. Thank you and good night. (Or g’day. 🙂 )
SARAH, I’m happy we still have people like you who try to understand the lives of others instead of condemn them. I guarantee you that MO and the others have nasty things they do that might have good reasons but since they are a DAMN nobody, it doesnt matter. Live a day as the worlds icon and see what happens when you have problems. Have you ever heard no one’s life can be perfect? Life always makes sure no one has it all and Mick was no exception. The bottom line HE GAVE THE WORLD SOMETHING NO ONE COULD DO,you his critics cant do half of what he did. He inspired me and I’ve been a crowd stunner since the day I learnt to apply his creativity. Love you SARAH,hate you MO. And PRETTY POISON,YOU LUCKY I CANT GRAB YOU FROM MY COMPUTER………
Hey Denny~
You are nothing but a hypocrite. You condemn others for condemning Michael but say no one has a right to condemn another. WTF?
You have no idea what it is I do in my life to say it’s nasty. Do you have proof to support your statement? No, you don’t other than your childish rants.
My “debate” with Sarah was her statements without facts to support them. Much like your post of anger. You don’t like what I or others have to say and say nasty things about us.
Yes, Michael gave the world great entertainment. It doesn’t change the fact he was a drug addict, for whatever reason he took massive drugs. He was still a drug addict, now dead.
Are you Sarah’s relative? She threatened with legal action and you’re threatening prettypois0n with bodily harm. Have at it. I’m sure your parents are proud of your behavior.
some of you guys in here should take the same med he did and die lol you talk about him like he was your personal friend he was a great artist but he was a junkie the cops found his stash but i do agree those doctors acted like common drug dealers and need to be put in jail and stop writing like you guys knew him in personal level. r.i.p to michael jackson the artist
Dear Readers,
After reading the two most recent comments I was sent on this post (both of which I did not, and will not approve), I have made the executive decision to no longer approve comments that have little or nothing to do with the topic of this post.
This post is about Michael Jackson’s lethal dependency on pain medication, and the mass amounts of drugs that were found in his home after he died. This post is not about whether or not MJ was in real pain, or how bad that pain was or wasn’t, or if any of us can ever really understand what he went through on a daily basis. This post is not about whether or not MJ was a caring and sensitive person, if he gave to charity, or if his kids were biologically his. And this post certainly is not about someone in Australia fighting with someone in the U.S. about things that really make no difference to anyone’s life but their own.
The comments have become repetitive – just people yelling back and forth at each other trying to prove their individual points. I feel as though the “conversation” or “debate” has turned into a vicious circle of name calling and inappropriate outbursts; I’m tired of it, and I am putting an end to it.
Now, if any of you have something to say that is ON TOPIC, then go right ahead and leave a comment, and I will share them. For the rest of you (and you know who you are), feel free to leave your comments, but I’ll be the only one reading them.
I realize this may seem a bit hypocritical of me, seeing how I choose to spend my time gossiping, but at least when I gossip I stay on topic.
I’m sorry if my decision offends you in any way, but it’s mine to make, and I am making it.
-Hilary
Dear Readers,
As expected, I have received some backlash after I announced that I will no longer approve comments for this post that have nothing to do with the actual, original, topic.
I stand by my decision.
You can call my decision “lame” all you want, and say that I’ve “sat back and slammed” you; that I’m “taking sides” or that I’m “biased” and that I’m “not worth” your time (psst…if I’m not worth your time why do you keep coming back?).
And you’re right, I could have edited out the “so called offensive parts” of the comments I said I wasn’t going to post, and posted them anyway, but I feel that would have only stoked the fire and fanned the flames. If I had done such an edit job, by the way, the comment would have gone from 836 words to 483 words – that’s about 350 words of offensive ranting; and that doesn’t include the 167 word tangent. Just sayin’.
– Hilary
Boy, I have an aching heart for Michael Jackson. I did not know him personally. Although, I could see so much pain and loneliness in his eyes.
He was a man surrounded my millions who “loved him” yet he was the loneliest man on earth. It makes me so sad that he secluded himself as he did. The way he isolated himself and spend all of his time attempting to alleviate his pain. With respect to his drug dependence, whether due to continued use of meds for “pain management” or to fulfill a physical dependence created by the excessive use of meds for pain mgmt.(If anyone can follow that)
I have a question. A scenario with a question at the end. (A true story)
My step mother (May she rest in peace) she suffered from Terminal Cancer and she was in agony. I mean shear A G O N Y . She was on every pain med possible. She was on a strong IV drip. Delaudid I think. Plus a lot of Oxycontin and well, the medication names aren’t really the point here.. the point is that she was on seriously strong meds and she took them long enough that her body was literally dependent.
She NEEDED the medication for both her pain and to avoid the harsh sickness of withdrawal. (When you are in the pain from cancer ravaging your body as it travels throughout your body, withdrawal sickness is not something that should have to contend with) A lot of terminally ill patients die dependent on their meds. Does that mean that they died junkies?
Would people think my step mom was a junkie? She wasn’t a drug user outside of the cancer treatment. She was a well respected teacher of 32 yrs, very involved in theatre and dance. She was diagnosed, attempted treatment and suffered. Took loads of pain meds just so she could get out of her bed and even with all the meds she was still in so much pain. (It was so so sad and terrifying really.) She became dependent.
So, a junkie?? I tend to say no. Not a junkie. Not even sure “addict” would apply here. As it is completely different.
Physical dependence and addiction are two very distinct and DIFFERENT things. A certain degree of physical dependence is expected in all prolonged users of opiates. Physical dependence is when the body requires a certain amount of the drug to function comfortably. A certain degree of withdrawal symptoms MAY be present (but not always) if the use of the drug is stopped or “cut-back” in a dependent person. Physical dependence is simply the fact that a person will be very uncomfortable, and/or in more pain than normal, if the drug is taken away. However, this should NOT be confused with addiction.
Addiction is the byproduct of drug ABUSE and MISUSE. It is rarely found in licit (legal) users who use opiates for medical reasons, but very commonly found in abusers, misusers, and recreational (“for fun or pleasure”) opiate users. Addiction means that one can NOT physically, mentally, and/or emotionally function without the drug. The addicted individual will exhibit an extreme set of withdrawal symptoms, and will be unable to behave logically and rationally without the drug.
Sorry if this getting long..but getting back to the question. All of this boils down to this:
If one would agree that my step mom was not a “junkie” but simply (or not simply) dependent on her pain medication. What is the difference between Michael Jackson’s severe dependence (I am SURE there are levels of dependence..like just being dependent or moderately dependent or severely dependent because there are numerous pain meds involved at a high quantity and although all are administered according to Dr’s orders, there is an immense dependence that stopping the meds whether weaning or cutting back is going to lead to a much more severe withdrawal) and my step mother’s dependence. Both were taking a lot of medication. Both were in pain. (I am sure that is an understatement) Albeit they died from different causes and that’s a fact, but at the end of the day, neither of them were out to get high. After all how could you enjoy a buzz while you’re in utter agony? I doubt it.
All of this.. It’s just my opinion. I hope it can be respected. Although, I can appreciate questions and pointing out things I may have over looked. But I don’t know ..I mean.. Aside from Michael being a celeb..a high profile star. He was a man. A lonely man who loved and wanted to love and be loved back. Like any other person. He seemed to be way more sensitive than most.. but that is the way he was. He, like all of us, wanted to feel as though he mattered. I am sure he was constantly discovering how people were using him and deceiving him. It is tragic that he felt so alone. But it must have been hard to decipher who to trust and who was looking to cash-in in some way. Aside from his troubled childhood or lack thereof, he had inner demons that tormented him and frankly he was probably enjoying the numbing effects of these meds. As much as one can “enjoy” anything while you’re suffering. But they helped his pain..and it probably didn’t hurt that they happened to block out some of those feelings he didn’t want to feel. Like loneliness or sadness or being scared. We’ve all been there. But.. anyway..
As for Michael.. I do wish for him, peace.
May he rest in peace.
Krista,
I’m sorry to hear your step-mother had to suffer the way she did, and I hope she has found solace where her soul now rests.
Personally, I don’t think your step-mother was a junkie, and based on what you’ve told me, here’s why:
1. She did not doctor shop
2. She did not get prescriptions filled in other people’s names
3. She did not keep large quantities of drugs that if mixed together could kill her, in her own home
Michael Jackson did all of those things.
Yes, there is an inevitable drug dependency that comes with the treatment of those suffering from cancer and other sources of extreme pain. However, there is also a manageable and safe way to administer said drug treatment. And it does not include doctor shopping and obtaining fraudulent prescriptions (famous or not, Michael Jackson still broke the law).
When that line – albeit a fine line – is crossed, the patient is no longer dependent on the drugs, they are addicted to them.
I’d have to say Hilary made some great and valid points, with Michael doctor shopping, obtaining medications in others’ names for his own use and having such a large amount of drugs in his home. It fits the scenario of a junkie doing what they can to get their fix.
I think the fine line, Krista, is between being physically dependent or addicted. Although there may be clinical differences, the end result is just the same; the need for the drug(s.) I’m sorry your mother experienced what she did. I hope she is in comfort now.
I thought from your great post Kristan, the most telling line is: “…But they helped his pain..and it probably didn’t hurt that they happened to block out some of those feelings he didn’t want to feel. Like loneliness or sadness or being scared. We’ve all been there…”
That sentiment supports my theory that Michael was avoiding psychological or emotional issues. He needed the drugs for pain management. With it came the happy byproduct of being able to escape from painful events in his life. Either way to me, Michael Jackson ended up being a functional junkie, although it started out innocently enough. RIP Michael.
No question in my mind Michael Jackson was a junkie. It takes one to know one. I never was an IV drug user thank god, never that into pills either, mainly alcohol and pot were my favorites, but I’ve been addicted to coke, taken LSD and mushrooms, used nitrous oxide as a recreational drug, and been f@@@ed up on anti inflammatory drugs while injured because I drank on top of them. I’ve known my share of junkies, know people who died of heroin overdose, I go to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and certainly qualify for Narcotics Anonymous. I get migraine headaches and have been prescribed multitudes of painkillers since age 13. People have asked me to sell my painkillers or use them to party on. I save them for their intended use, killing headache pain. It was rare even in my heavy using days of my 20’s (I have 4 months clean and sober now- I’m 40 years old) RARE that I would abuse them. Really I abused illicit drugs, not the ones I was prescribed. I could have easily abused my prescriptions by taking MORE then prescribed, or by MIXING drugs and alcohol, or by taking MULTIPLE prescribed drugs with synergistic effects. Thus not only killing physical pain, but “getting high” and changing the way I felt on an emotional basis as well as physical.
Fortunately smoking pot got me pretty high and stuck on stupid was usually good enough for me.
In my mind, regarding MJ, given the amounts of drugs, the variety of drugs, the sources, the revolving doctors, other peoples names on the prescriptions, his secrecy and isolation even to his own family members, siblings doing interventions on him, its all the signs and behaviors of a junkie.
The last fact that REALLY makes it impossible to romance any other rationalization, is that he MJ DIED THE DEATH OF A JUNKIE
from an overdose of drugs.
Hey, I love Pinot Noir wine, after all it is a tasty beverage. In moderation its a good thing. I cannot romance the notion that I can drink like normal people. No matter how many times I tried to moderate what I drank, how much I drank, what I mixed with alcohol, etc etc etc ad nauseum, I would eventually end up overdoing it, and anything could happen after the first drink, usually not good things. Fortunately I did not end up dead and never killed anyone else. I cannot romance any notions like “one day I will drink like a gentleman”, “hey I’m a really great guy I just have to control my drinking”, “oh I had a bad childhood if I just take some Prozac it’ll be alright”, or “hey at least I’m not as bad as so and so”….that’s all BS. I’m an alcoholic, I can’t drink, I will ruin my life or I’ll end up dead. Period.
Let us not romance the idea that MJ was sick, was a beautiful person, sold a million albums, loved children, “was special” did so much good, and therefore say that somehow that makes it okay that he died of an overdose, or lived the crazy F@@@ed up existence that he did because he was famous and no-one understands what that’s like. Howard Hughes was much the same way. A rich, famous reclusive junkie who ended up with nothing. MJ ABUSED HIS POWER NOTORIETY MONEY AND FAME TO GET PREFERENTIAL TREATMENT TO GET MORE DRUGS THEN A NORMAL PERSON WOULD HAVE BEEN PRESCRIBED, and as a result of his willful misconduct in the face of trained professionals, family members and advisors, died from a drug overdose caused by his own denial of the fact that he was an addict.
You can blame others, but in the end the blame is on Michael. Surely there was help available for his personal problems, and voices that warned him about his drug use or refused him access to powerful drugs. Surely he was aware of the great superstars (Janice Joplin) who had passed on before him. In the end you the addict have to admit you have a problem and ASK FOR HELP. Hopefully you get low enough to do that before you get high enough to die.
Its not personal. I don’t just want to drag him down ’cause he was famous and I want to see him fall. Its the truth. Jim Morrison was a junkie. John Belushi was a junkie. I’m a junkie in recovery. Saying anything else is just window dressing so lets not sugar coat it. Kapiche?
thats my massege THE NA WAY